interviews giving me direction..

first, after i got up i went to the first interview i had today which was at some hotel which looked familiar (but they ALL do.. so that's not saying much). some other hotel is actually interested in hiring me, so they messaged me asking when i could come in for an in-person interview. if they thought i wasn't capable of working the job and remaining WASTING MY TIME AT COURAGE KENNY.. DON'T YOU THINK THEY WOULDN'T HAVE FUCKIN WASTED THEIR TIME SEEING WHEN I COULD COME IN FOR A DAMN INTERVIEW?! it's pretty fuckin sad when strangers have more confidence in your ability to do things OTHER THAN EASY SHIT THAT MY LIVING ROOM WALL COULD DO JUST SO THEY GET PAID FOR KEEPING THEIR CLIENT'S ABILITIES IN THE SAME DAMN PLACE. well.. it's nice to see that some people actually have respect.. and i'm definitely not talking about the pricks who "support" me to mindlessly attend some pathetic excuse of a rehabilitation center JUST so they can appear caring, supportive, and whatever else bullshit they're looking to fulfill their egos with. you really need to consider what kind of person you REALLY are. must suck to feel better about yourself when taking advantage of a person you were trusted to advocate for JUST to make yourself look "better". i wouldn't know. i have more integrity than that. it's almost as sad as a person who reads their sister's blog every day, hoping they can find a shortcut to being successful because they're too fuckin lazy to do the work themselves on their lives. my therapist couldn't understand why i have such a problem with someone looking up to me, so they stalk me but i must make my life look easy? you REALLY think it was that fuckin easy to get where i am now? stop wasting your time stalking and ACTUALLY do the fuckin work to get on the track of getting where i am. THERE AREN'T ANY SHORTCUTS EITHER, TUBS. it just pisses me off that people refuse to realize the shit i've been through to get where i am- like this was EASY or something considering my circumstances.. you people try to get as far as i did with a narcissistic mom and her flying monkeys- one being my own sister and cousin, and a traumatic brain injury along with ALL the circumstances (having to have a few surgeries as a result of my selfish, narcissistic bum mom) and situations tied to it. YOU CAN'T. IT WASN'T THAT FUCKIN EASY AND YOU DICKS AREN'T STOPPING ME HERE, SO MY ADVICE IS TO WORRY ABOUT YOUR OWN FAT ASSES AND WORK ON YOURSELVES. DON'T CONCENTRATE ON WHAT I'M DOING BECAUSE YOU'RE JUST GONNA GET LEFT IN THE DUST. i'm obviously smarter than you and i have other values and *GASP* YOU AIN'T ONE OF THEM! fuck off. you'll always be nothing if you just watch me every fucking day in the crazy hopes of magically turning into something REMOTELY the same as i am. i'm not kidding either. since you seem to think i'm smart enough to be interested enough to read my blog EVERY DAY in hopes of turning into me.
i've got another phone interview with another hotel tomorrow and i'm pretty sure a different one was trying to schedule an in-person interview with me on indeed.. so i hope i found my niche.